I hope you had a wonderful holiday season. We’ve had a lot going on here with sickness, etc., but through it all God kept us. You were never far from my heart and mind though.
I pray that this will be a wonderful year for you. I also pray that this be the year that you find it in your heart to forgive me and allow me to be a part of your life. I’m not trying to come in and be your mother because the time for that has passed. I just want to know you and you to know me and the rest of the family and allow us to be a part of your life and you be a part of ours. I know that’s a lot to ask, but I serve a God who deals in the impossible everyday.
Even if you aren’t ready to reach out to me, I really wish you would reach out to your sister Shay. She’s an innocent victim in all of this. Y’all actually have a lot in common. I wasn’t there for her as a child either. Living with Tina screwed my life up and as a result, my children – the daughter and son I always wanted – became the victims they never should have been. That time of my life was horrible and even though I know God has forgiven me, it’s hard for me to forgive myself. It’s something I struggle with daily. God knows that I did not want any of that stuff to go on. I was a young, weak person and Tina took advantage of that. You have no idea how I suffered during those years. But anyway… Shay has finally forgiven me and we have a wonderful relationship now. She’s older now (23) and understands all that went on during those years.
She’s on Facebook if you want to contact her that way, or her email address is
tr**********@ya***.com
. Please don’t punish her because of my mistakes.
Well I need to get back to work. You were on my mind and I didn’t want to let another day go by without posting.
Love you always,
Renee
